Hi and welcome back to my blog , Today I would like to write about what I really feel inside myself . Am I really happy with the way my life is nowdays and what you see for the physical part of me is that I am alwas smiling and alwas happy but that is not the true me for the inner part is alwas sad , lonely and miserable deep inside , when ever I see my friends with thier girlfriends or thier wife I feel what is wrong with my life and why can't I be happy like them I will never know . Nobody knows how much I would like to have someone to go out with and at times cook for that special person but as my life would have it there is no one in that part of my life now and forever more . The reson I joint all this chatting web stie is hopeing that I can find someone to share my life with but till today there is no one that is interested in me oh why does my life sucks so much that I am doom to remain this why till I am deep in the ground , well if that is how my life is ment to be I can not say much but I am the most unhappy person in the world now days and I am fed up with all the promblems that I have on a daily basics and also trying to make ends meet for my self . Sometime when I am at home I do nothing but sit by my self and think about all the things that I could have had but because of the way things are now and forever more my life will never be happy and fill with the joy that I had when I had you my frist and only luv . For thoes who read my life story here I hope you will understand me better if we have ever met out there ta for now till my next blog .